A life changing story, by Patty Smith. Following my husband's suicide, haunting nightmares of gunshots began echoing in my head and I began living behind the curtains of darkness, when I desperately fell into the hands of a psychologist. Weeks later she stepped forward, taking me back on a journey, through the scandalous times, when we lived in the deadly clutches of father. In a desperate search for the inner child, it reveals the hidden secrets, lies and fears we keep. After years of abnormal living, evil forces won their triumph, overpowering, stealing, what moral senses I had left as I met face-to-face the consequences of my reckless actions, with society's reactions. One by one disaster emerged. A tragic and shameful ending that left me plagued with guilt, as I frantically searched for the answers of ...Why, Why, Why? This dramatic and chilling story was written surrounding true events and heart wrenching emotions demonstrating the abuse that has left our minds repentant for what we believed we could not alter, nor change. A connection of hurt minds coming together, for as many of my roads are yours, allowing us to heal as we find the purpose entwined.*The names, places and sequences of events have all been changed to protect, more than just the innocent.